Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Middle of day one update
Well its 12:30 and still doing great on my fast. However, today I am extremely hungry. Maybe I just need to down a couple glasses of water to fill me up. Right now I'm on my lunch hour from work and I'm just sitting in my car writting this blog on my phone. I was looking at some other pro-ana and fasting sites earlier. I know I'm definitely not anorexic. I'm too fat to be anorexic and I'm not that strong willed. However I do believe I do have some sort of eating disorder. I can neither be in the healthy median when it come to eating...I'm either fasting and starving myself or binging like crazy. Why can't I just be normal? I hope today is better than yesterday afterwork. I'm going to try to get my husband to go with me to the gym tonight. I'm just going to do a lot of cardio until I can't stand anymore then go swim for a while then the sauna. Surely to god I will lose a couple pounds today if I do that. I really need some support when I'm fasting...it seems like I start looking forward to be able to blog something just so I can get all of this out of my head. I will try to post another blog tonight but not for sure if I will be able to since I will be with my husband all evening and night...don't really want him to know what's up with me right now.
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